"Why Can't I Follow?"

Before Jesus’ death, Peter didn’t understand what would happen or how he would respond in a time of crisis. During his Last Supper with Jesus, Peter asked, Lord, why can’t I follow you now? I will lay down my life for you. (Jn. 13:37 NKV)

How typical of the normal human response. We want to serve God immediately—according to our will, according to our desires, according to our unrealistic understanding. But impetuous desire is usually inconsistent with a person’s spiritual reality. Although Peter wanted to be a dedicated follower of Christ, he was immature. Although he loved Jesus, he was not ready to live sacrificially.

Jesus understood Peter and He understands us. Because He loves us, He allows circumstances to expose our nature as He allowed circumstances to expose Peter’s nature. Will you really lay down your life for me? Jesus asked. (v. 28a) Then he foretold Peter’s imminent denials.

A heart-rending series of events along with a revelation followed. But through it Peter learned to emphasize God instead of his personal human response—God instead of himself.

Originally published October 11, 1985.
Picture: Apple blossoms, West Fargo, 2009. Photo by Solveig.

A Spiritual Goad

Ecclesiastes tells us, The words of the wise are like goads. . . . (Ecc. 12:11a NKJV)

Goads are sharp pointed sticks used to drive oxen. They look similar to javelins. So here Scripture compares words spoke by wise leaders to sharp or pointed instruments that push willful but slow-witted creatures in the right direction. When we extend the analogy, we realize we’re the slow-witted creatures! Oxen, to be specific!

Who can be excited about an analogy that compares people to oxen. However, if we recognize God as the source of truth, then wisdom makes sense. God’s Word does serve as a goad—and it does, on many occasions, reveal our sin. It jabs against our willful opinions and desires. It performs spiritual surgery by supernaturally identifying and removing offense.

Perhaps we’re not so different from oxen after all.

For the word of God is living and powerful, and sharper than any two-edged sword, piecing even to the division of soul and spirit. . . . (Heb. 4:12a) This kind of penetration can cause pain. Wisdom might even cause a measure of suffering. But wisdom brings us to God.

Originally published June 12, 1987.